Well as you know from my last blog, I am not proud of the fact that I gained this week, but I am proud of how I reacted to a certain situation. Normally, when it comes to guys, I don't tend to speak up about my feelings, and how I feel they treat me, right or wrong. As spoken about before, I know this is a lack of self confidence, but one day, I want to go on a date with a guy, or start dating a guy, and the first time they mess up, kick them straight to the curb. Not worry that if I get rid of him, there won't be another one down the line. Don't get me wrong, I am ok by myself. Yes, I get lonely, but because I am an only child, I am very used to being by myself, and doing things by myself. That is my goal!
But, back to the situation I am proud of the way I handled. So my ex, he has been contacting me. We got into a huge fight this past weekend, and finally on Tuesday I stood up to him. Told him exactly how I felt. I told him that I wasn't happy with the way he treated me, and that I felt like he didn't give me what I needed. He told me he wanted to be friends, but I told him I don't think that would be possible. It's just better for a clean break, and let it go. He got mad at me and called me a smart a** because I had quick responses and said what I truly felt during our conversation. I told him that I wasn't a smart a**, but I was just actually speaking up for myself, rather than letting him control the conversation and walk all over me, which was normal for our talks and/or fights. I am good about speaking up for myself, but when we would fight, especially in person, he would always twist my words, twist the conversation, and making it always my fault and also speak over me so I couldn't really ever get my point across of why I was mad in the first place.
I am excited for this weekend, to rest. I don't know if I am more excited to sleep in, watch tv or just veg, but I am EXCITED!!! I am planning on going to the gym tonight, and then taking Saturday off, and then going on Sunday. But I am taking it easy this week. Not over doing it, and work up to those hard work out. Hopefully I will see the difference at weigh in next week. Saturday I will be cooking dinner for my friend and weight watchers buddie and her husband. I am going to make spaghetti squash spaghetti. Then Sunday, the Denver Broncos play (hopefully winning so they can make it to the playoffs), and I am going to watch the game and go out for dinner with my friend Josh and his wife who also moved here from Colorado. We have a tradition of always going to Rudy's bbq, but normally I pig out, this time I will be good about it.
Well until next time...
But, back to the situation I am proud of the way I handled. So my ex, he has been contacting me. We got into a huge fight this past weekend, and finally on Tuesday I stood up to him. Told him exactly how I felt. I told him that I wasn't happy with the way he treated me, and that I felt like he didn't give me what I needed. He told me he wanted to be friends, but I told him I don't think that would be possible. It's just better for a clean break, and let it go. He got mad at me and called me a smart a** because I had quick responses and said what I truly felt during our conversation. I told him that I wasn't a smart a**, but I was just actually speaking up for myself, rather than letting him control the conversation and walk all over me, which was normal for our talks and/or fights. I am good about speaking up for myself, but when we would fight, especially in person, he would always twist my words, twist the conversation, and making it always my fault and also speak over me so I couldn't really ever get my point across of why I was mad in the first place.
I am excited for this weekend, to rest. I don't know if I am more excited to sleep in, watch tv or just veg, but I am EXCITED!!! I am planning on going to the gym tonight, and then taking Saturday off, and then going on Sunday. But I am taking it easy this week. Not over doing it, and work up to those hard work out. Hopefully I will see the difference at weigh in next week. Saturday I will be cooking dinner for my friend and weight watchers buddie and her husband. I am going to make spaghetti squash spaghetti. Then Sunday, the Denver Broncos play (hopefully winning so they can make it to the playoffs), and I am going to watch the game and go out for dinner with my friend Josh and his wife who also moved here from Colorado. We have a tradition of always going to Rudy's bbq, but normally I pig out, this time I will be good about it.
Well until next time...
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