What is the meaning behind the name of my blog? Well it's pretty self explanatory. It's the ups and downs of a "BIG" girl in losing weight and dating. I think anybody with weight issues can attest to the fact that your self confidence isn't always at the highest marks when you are "BIG" and trying to date. I have put up with a lot of bulls*** from guys and the dating world in general because of my weight. A lot of my problem is that because of my weight if any guy shows me attention, I don't want to do anything to lose that guy because I am afraid there might not be another out there that would like me, for me. I know that's a self confidence issue. I am sure with losing weight that will help. I have always wanted to be that girl that can say forget you, I don't need your bulls***, I am out. But I have never been able to do that. Now, outside of the whole guys/dating scene, I am the most confident person in the world. I am outspoken, the life of the party, etc. I have no problem telling people how I really feel. Good or Bad. That's a good personality trait as well as bad sometimes.
Well on a good note, I got all my Christmas shopping done yesterday, online. So I should be getting all the packages in soon. That's exciting, I don't have to fight any of the crowds in the stores. Plus this year is the first year my mom has ever given me a list of the stuff she wanted, so I was able to just go off that, and that was super nice. Well it's pretty busy at work today, so I must go...talk to you tomorrow!
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