Tuesday, July 24, 2012
To catch you up, especially on the Carson situation, let me first start by saying, don't worry, it's still over with him, it's been over, but there have just been some interesting developments in his story. One story I am hoping has ended for good, and that is not a book I want to re-read.
So we broke up, but we continued to talk here and there as friends. It made it super difficult for me to try and get over him, but it was hard because even through all the pain he caused, he was someone I had always confided my deepest darkest secrets to and I considered a friend. I mean really, with friends like that who needs enemies lol. I have another situation that I am going through personally, which I won't get into, but he was one of the very few people that was aware of it, and actually wanted to help me to fix it, so it made me feel a little lost when we broke up, thinking omg I am really alone in this now. That made it rough. So we continued to talk, and fight, and talk more, and then we would talk about getting back together, we didn't and won't but we would talk about it, and then we would fight because I would bring everything from the past up, because it wasn't something that I could forgive and forget anymore, it was real this time.
So I have told you all about my best friend Jayson before. He was my very first boyfriend's best friend, and when we broke up, my story to everyone is that I got custody of Jayson, which is basically the truth. So we laugh about it now, but after the next situation happened, I really began to think. See Carson has his best friend living with him. The guy was going through a divorce and Carson invited him to stay with him and help pay rent. His name is JW (jaydubb), and we have always gotten along really well. Everytime I would go over to Carson's house JW and I would talk and talk about life. I would help him in his girl problems, and he would talk to me about my weight loss and working out. Several times, Carson and I would be mad at each other, not talking and so JW and I would talk and Carson would get so mad, but I thought it was funny. So when Carson and I broke up, about a week later, I re-created my online dating website and I get a message from someone. I go online, look and realize it's JW...I was like what the heck. We started talking, he told me that even though Carson and I are through, he would still like to remain friends and work out together sometime. So that Monday we went and worked out. It was fun, I like the dude, he is from the south and a bit country and makes me laugh. We didn't bring Carson up at all and it was nice. But, then Carson threw a fit. Straight up started talking **** , and I had even texted him asking him if that was ok and he said sure, but he obviously didn't like it. And like a coworker told me, would I like it if he did it with me, no, but he is a jerk and I don't really care lol. So we have completely stopped talking, cut off all communication, online and I have blocked him on my phone. It's really for the best lol.
Now, on to my robbing the craddle story. So I had this guy message me on the online dating website, telling me he was super interested in me, and that he would like to get to know me. I looked at his profile, first his pictures were AMAZING...the hottest guy who has every messaged me before, I was blown away. But then I saw his age. 23. I am 28, about to be 29. Not a huge difference but still a 29 year old and a 23 year old's goals and interests are far from being the same. Most people I know at that age are looking to party all the time and drink and sleep late, I was just like ughh when I saw that, cause he was super cute. So I wrote back to him and said sure lets get to know each other, and we started talking, and I figured out we actually did have a lot in common.
We work out a lot and at the same gym sometimes. He told me he doesn't party very much and likes to just hang out watching movies, which I like to do as well. The first time was last Thursday at the gym. My friend and I were there working out when he and I were trying to coordinate meeting each other through texting each other, and I see him standing outside when my friend and I are about to leave, and I looked at him through the window, looked at her and was like oh heck no. He started to walk in the gym, I turned around so he wouldn’t recognize me because he didn’t look a thing like his pictures. He looked short. And he was wearing his gym clothes and did not look at all cute, and had absolutely no swag lol. My friend was like Brittany, give him a chance and I was like no, this is the exact reason why I end up going back to Carson. She was like you are never going to know if you don’t give him a chance. I was like fine, so he called and I told him he had walked by me, and then he came outside, because by then he had walked in, and we walked out. He came up and gave me this huge hug, and we started talking. See, I can be a bit of a smart a** at times. Well all the time…lol. But I started to test the waters while talking to him outside the gym if he could take me being a smart a**, and he took it like a trooper and even spit it back at me. I loved it! And, he wasn’t short. He was actually pretty tall and quite cute up close. So we just said our hi’s and bye’s, and then went our separate ways.
That night we talked and set a plan to have our first on Friday. So Friday comes, and the problem is that he is in the military and just got stationed here, and they haven’t shipped his vehicle yet so I would have to go get him. So I went and picked him up, he asked me what I wanted to eat,and told him that I really wanted pizza, but I can’t order pizza for just myself because I end up either eating all of it, or feeling horrible for throwing everything but the two pieces I eat out. He suggested getting a pizza and then watching movies at my place. So we went and ordered the pizza, and sat there at the Pizza Hut waiting for it to get done, just talking and laughing up a storm. He makes me laugh so hard. So then we went back to my place and ate and watched a movie. We talked a little and then I took him home, along with the left over pizza for him to eat later.
Sunday I had invited him to dinner, but he said he couldn’t but suggested Monday. So Monday rolled around, and I never mentioned it, seeing if he would, and he did, asking if he was going to get to see me and I said of course. So I picked him up, and we went back to my place where I cooked him dinner, and this is the thing with younger guys, they are very inexperienced in the dating/real world that anything I do extra he thinks I just hung the moon, he just thought my 15 minute thrown together spaghetti was amazing, phenomenal even. I laughed silently, but was really happy that he was so grateful. He even asked if he could take the rest home because it was so good.
He is leaving this weekend to go out of town on military drills for three weeks. His birthday is August 11, so I am not sure if I should try to do something for him before he goes, or just let it go by. When he is gone, he won’t have access to phones or computers so I won’t see him until way after (my thought was just to send him an e-card, but he won’t get it), which is closer to my birthday on August 28th. It’s so new, we haven’t even established anything serious between us, just dating, but honestly I expect him to not necessarily buy me a present for my b-day but to be there when my friends and I go to celebrate. We have another date planned for Friday. I am hoping to see him between now and then but if not, I am excited about Friday. I need ideas/suggestions on what I should do. I really like this guy, so hopefully things go well. Here is to hoping right?
So we broke up, but we continued to talk here and there as friends. It made it super difficult for me to try and get over him, but it was hard because even through all the pain he caused, he was someone I had always confided my deepest darkest secrets to and I considered a friend. I mean really, with friends like that who needs enemies lol. I have another situation that I am going through personally, which I won't get into, but he was one of the very few people that was aware of it, and actually wanted to help me to fix it, so it made me feel a little lost when we broke up, thinking omg I am really alone in this now. That made it rough. So we continued to talk, and fight, and talk more, and then we would talk about getting back together, we didn't and won't but we would talk about it, and then we would fight because I would bring everything from the past up, because it wasn't something that I could forgive and forget anymore, it was real this time.
So I have told you all about my best friend Jayson before. He was my very first boyfriend's best friend, and when we broke up, my story to everyone is that I got custody of Jayson, which is basically the truth. So we laugh about it now, but after the next situation happened, I really began to think. See Carson has his best friend living with him. The guy was going through a divorce and Carson invited him to stay with him and help pay rent. His name is JW (jaydubb), and we have always gotten along really well. Everytime I would go over to Carson's house JW and I would talk and talk about life. I would help him in his girl problems, and he would talk to me about my weight loss and working out. Several times, Carson and I would be mad at each other, not talking and so JW and I would talk and Carson would get so mad, but I thought it was funny. So when Carson and I broke up, about a week later, I re-created my online dating website and I get a message from someone. I go online, look and realize it's JW...I was like what the heck. We started talking, he told me that even though Carson and I are through, he would still like to remain friends and work out together sometime. So that Monday we went and worked out. It was fun, I like the dude, he is from the south and a bit country and makes me laugh. We didn't bring Carson up at all and it was nice. But, then Carson threw a fit. Straight up started talking **** , and I had even texted him asking him if that was ok and he said sure, but he obviously didn't like it. And like a coworker told me, would I like it if he did it with me, no, but he is a jerk and I don't really care lol. So we have completely stopped talking, cut off all communication, online and I have blocked him on my phone. It's really for the best lol.
Now, on to my robbing the craddle story. So I had this guy message me on the online dating website, telling me he was super interested in me, and that he would like to get to know me. I looked at his profile, first his pictures were AMAZING...the hottest guy who has every messaged me before, I was blown away. But then I saw his age. 23. I am 28, about to be 29. Not a huge difference but still a 29 year old and a 23 year old's goals and interests are far from being the same. Most people I know at that age are looking to party all the time and drink and sleep late, I was just like ughh when I saw that, cause he was super cute. So I wrote back to him and said sure lets get to know each other, and we started talking, and I figured out we actually did have a lot in common.
We work out a lot and at the same gym sometimes. He told me he doesn't party very much and likes to just hang out watching movies, which I like to do as well. The first time was last Thursday at the gym. My friend and I were there working out when he and I were trying to coordinate meeting each other through texting each other, and I see him standing outside when my friend and I are about to leave, and I looked at him through the window, looked at her and was like oh heck no. He started to walk in the gym, I turned around so he wouldn’t recognize me because he didn’t look a thing like his pictures. He looked short. And he was wearing his gym clothes and did not look at all cute, and had absolutely no swag lol. My friend was like Brittany, give him a chance and I was like no, this is the exact reason why I end up going back to Carson. She was like you are never going to know if you don’t give him a chance. I was like fine, so he called and I told him he had walked by me, and then he came outside, because by then he had walked in, and we walked out. He came up and gave me this huge hug, and we started talking. See, I can be a bit of a smart a** at times. Well all the time…lol. But I started to test the waters while talking to him outside the gym if he could take me being a smart a**, and he took it like a trooper and even spit it back at me. I loved it! And, he wasn’t short. He was actually pretty tall and quite cute up close. So we just said our hi’s and bye’s, and then went our separate ways.
That night we talked and set a plan to have our first on Friday. So Friday comes, and the problem is that he is in the military and just got stationed here, and they haven’t shipped his vehicle yet so I would have to go get him. So I went and picked him up, he asked me what I wanted to eat,and told him that I really wanted pizza, but I can’t order pizza for just myself because I end up either eating all of it, or feeling horrible for throwing everything but the two pieces I eat out. He suggested getting a pizza and then watching movies at my place. So we went and ordered the pizza, and sat there at the Pizza Hut waiting for it to get done, just talking and laughing up a storm. He makes me laugh so hard. So then we went back to my place and ate and watched a movie. We talked a little and then I took him home, along with the left over pizza for him to eat later.
Sunday I had invited him to dinner, but he said he couldn’t but suggested Monday. So Monday rolled around, and I never mentioned it, seeing if he would, and he did, asking if he was going to get to see me and I said of course. So I picked him up, and we went back to my place where I cooked him dinner, and this is the thing with younger guys, they are very inexperienced in the dating/real world that anything I do extra he thinks I just hung the moon, he just thought my 15 minute thrown together spaghetti was amazing, phenomenal even. I laughed silently, but was really happy that he was so grateful. He even asked if he could take the rest home because it was so good.
He is leaving this weekend to go out of town on military drills for three weeks. His birthday is August 11, so I am not sure if I should try to do something for him before he goes, or just let it go by. When he is gone, he won’t have access to phones or computers so I won’t see him until way after (my thought was just to send him an e-card, but he won’t get it), which is closer to my birthday on August 28th. It’s so new, we haven’t even established anything serious between us, just dating, but honestly I expect him to not necessarily buy me a present for my b-day but to be there when my friends and I go to celebrate. We have another date planned for Friday. I am hoping to see him between now and then but if not, I am excited about Friday. I need ideas/suggestions on what I should do. I really like this guy, so hopefully things go well. Here is to hoping right?
