I am sooooo mad right now. At myself! My boss bought all the staff McFlurries today and before calculating the points on it, I figured it looks like a small enough size, no big deal. Wrong. 17 points. I literally just broke down crying in my office right now because I am so mad at myself for that. It's not even just that. I gained this past Tuesday, and I expected it, but it still sucked. But you would think that would light a fire under me to get motivated becasue I had this huge goal of reaching 100lbs by July 4th, and that isn't going to happen now. Yesterday, for dinner, here is what I had. Two peices of double pepporoni pizza and a hot dog without the bun, and a diet cherry limeade, and a klondike bar...39 points. My daily is only 44. I did go to the gym, but I am just like how the heck can I do this to myself.

I know it's that tom, and I am sure is why I am so emotional, but I can not express to you how mad and angry I am at myself right now. Going into the weekend is even worse because I have a huge weekend going on with I am sure some very decadent eating going on. Plus vacation next week of camping. I feel like I am spiraling out of control right now and I don't know how to stop myself.

I have stopped crying now...and I am officially off to lunch now. I have to take it easy for sure on what I eat. UGHHHH I just feel like yelling.