No one will ever look like me, think like me, speak like me, act like me, etc because I am unique. One of a kind. God broke the mold when he made me (some people might be happy about that, lol). I am strong, independent, sophisticated, ghetto at times, funny, loud, likes to be the center of attention, caring, smart, dedicated, loving, annoying, hard worker, sensitive, and a million other words that could describe me.
I have OCD...no one will ever in their lives think it's important that I set the cup/glass down before I take a drink out of it. I can not take a drink unless I do that. No one will ever think it's important to wash your hands anytime you touch something in the bathroom, for instance walk in, touch the light switch, wash the hands, go to the restroom, wash the hands, take my contacts out, wash the hands, take my medicine, wash the hands. This is only when I am in my OWN bathroom, not when I am in public or someone elses, and I probably have the cleanest bathroom around. I hate shaking people's hands. I try my hardest not to, but sometimes in certain business situations its nescessary and I am silently screaming in my head for it to end quickly and not be too gross. I sometimes hate putting certain lotions on my hands because it feels "heavy", and then makes me want to wash my hands, therefore defeating the purpose of putting the lotion on in the first place. I have to wear Vick's Vapor rub to bed on my lips, and I have to apply it evenly and smoothly and will sit and make sure I get it right no matter how tired, etc I am. Once when I had hurt my leg and my mom was taking care of me, I thought she was going to hit me with the jar of Vick's because she was like just put it on and be done with it, go to bed already lol.
I think of music as emotions. Certains songs remind me of certain situations or people that I have encountered in my life. I could be having the best day in the world and a song come on and I just break down crying, or be in the worst mood and then hear a song and instantly bave a personality change. I think of colors as hot and cold. Red, black, blue, purple are hot, yellow, orange, pink, peach are cold. I have to touch things to truly understand what it is. If you ever go shopping with me, you will understand why I walk through the store touching everything, because I need to know the feeling, the textures. If someone is asking me a question about something, I have to touch it, to explain something about it.
I don't have any animals, but I cry when I know an animal is in need. There was a cat that was roaming around my apartment and I stayed outside trying to feed it and give it water for four hours one night because I was worried it would get hungry. Last weekend a dog was running across the road in my mom's neighborhood and a car ran it over, and I thought I was going to puke and die all at the same time. It was fine, got up and ran away, but all I could think about all weekend is worrying if it had internal injuries and wondering if it was ok.
I know this sounds horrible, but I don't have any pitty for homeless people that sit on the corner of the streets begging for money. I have never and will never give them my money. I work hard for my money, and donate to a lot of charities and refuse to give someone a handout that won't help themselves. I have been in some trying times, as well as have my family/friends, and somehow we are always able to find a way to make money or find a job. You do what you have to do, and begging other people for money is not the way to do it. If you give a man a fish he will eat for the day, if you teach him to fish, he will eat for a lifetime. I am not above helping people, I give a lot of money and of myself to helping people, but I help people who help themselves.
Anyways, this is me and what makes me different from everyone else, among a ton of other things!
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