***Names have been changed to protect my job***
Ok…. so I am a bit frustrated….with me being on Weight Watchers, by no means do I expect everyone or anyone for that matter around me to participate or even not eat what they would normally eat. In fact I encourage them to eat normally due to the fact that I can see what it looks like or even possibly take a small bite to fill my craving. But, I came in to work yesterday at 10:45am which is later than normal and walk in and employee #1 bombards me at the teller line asking if I wanted to participate in the potluck they are having on Thursday. Boss #1 was standing right there, and said we haven’t had a pot luck in a while and so to celebrate having Friday off for Veterans day, we were going to have a pot luck on Thursday. I asked what we were having and she said salads, cold salads. I said sure, why not, already thinking of what kind of salad I could bring. Employee #1 goes well good your in charge of bringing the chips and sprite. I was like oh I would prefer to bring a salad, because I don’t eat chips or drink sprite. She goes well everyone already signed up for all the salads, and I was like well what is everyone bringing, here is the list she gives me:
· Spinach Dip Boss #1
· Chips and Sprite Brittany
· Fruit Salad Employee #2
· Caesar Salad Employee #3
· Avocado Salad Employee #4
· Toss Salad Employee #5
· Pasta Salad Boss #2
· Chicken Salad Employee #1
· Potato Salad Security Guard
· Tostadas and wheat bread Employee #6
I LOVE Employee #5's tossed salad or because these effers can’t speak proper English, toss salad…so I thought if anything I can have some of her salad, because nothing else on the list is healthy or anything I would be able to eat, and then I could eat the fruit salad too. Ok…good I have a meal, so I am like fine, whatever, I will bring the chips and sprite.
So this morning in our daily huddle, they went over what everyone was bringing etc, and just reminding everyone to bring their stuff tomorrow. I asked why employee #6 needed to bring wheat bread if we were having salads, and she agreed not understanding why she needed to bring bread but I guess with employee #1's chicken salad, to make a sandwich, again not something I can eat. So Boss #1 suggested she bring dessert. Employee #2 chimed in saying well I am bringing fruit salad because everyone here is on a diet, (we have three pregnant girls and three girls on diets). We have 11 employees, one male. So four girls out of the 10 aren’t watching what they eat. So a majority of the girls are watching what they eat.
Employee #2 then proceeded to tell us what she was putting in the fruit salad, cool whip, coconut, marshmallows, pecans, canned fruit etc. I chimed in asking if she had bought the stuff for it yet and she said no, and I asked, out of all those ingredients she is using, if she could please buy fat free cool whip. She looked at me and goes well I am making this for everyone not just you, Employee #5 chimed in saying yeah, this is for everyone and plus she needs to buy whatever is cheaper and then Employee #1 says yeah don’t be picky, this is for everyone.
I was sooooo mad. Why am I buying Sprite….because they mentioned yesterday that the girls who are pregnant can’t drink anything with caffeine, there are only three pregnant girls out of 11 employees, why do I have to cater to them when they can’t help me out by buying fat free cool whip? I didn't even go to the degree to ask for no coconut or sugar free canned fruit, or even fresh fruit. So I have to buy Sprite to cater to them but they seriously can’t buy fat free cool whip? Seriously?!?! I almost feel like saying forget it I am not going to participate, but then I don’t want to look like the jerk because two wrongs don’t make a right. So I think I am deciding to buy Diet Sprite, or possibly even Diet Cranberry Sierra Mist, which is one of my favorites. And some of the new fat free chips, or even the baked chips, whichever is lower in points, just to prove a point.
The thing that also gets me, is every single one of these girls has said at one time or another that they are dieting or doing something to lose weight, and at those times, we have accommodated things for them. And trust me, there is only ONE skinny girl here that could stand to eat a couple cheeseburgers and not diet or not have fat free cool whip. Even the sugar free cool whip is better, it just has splenda instead of sugar...tastes just the same. I mean seriously, it's not even the issue of the cool whip, it's the issue of me having to conform for them and them not even willing to go an extra step for me.
But whatever, I am still mad, even two hours after the incident I think because I sit here and write this blog, it makes me more mad thinking about it.
Last week at weigh in, I gained. 1.2lbs!!! I honestly expected it. The week prior was not a good week for me eating wise. Actually it was primarily the weekend that was bad, but still with everything I ate I am surprised I didn't gain more. On Friday I had pepperoni stuffed crust pizza (two slices), and three cocktails with gin and seltzer water and sweet and sour. Saturday morning I had left over pizza (1 1/2 slices) and some pomegranate juice. For lunch I had a hamburger, no cheese, from the Hi-D-Ho in Alamogordo. For anybody that knows what that is, knows those are some ginormous burgers. Then I went to the lodge in Cloudcroft, NM and had half a bottle of champagne, for dinner had a salad with ranch, rack of lamb, twice baked potatoes, and asparagus. I also, even though I know I shouldn't have, ordered a piece of tiramisu cheesecake. The next morning at breakfast at the Lodge, I had whole wheat pancakes with sugar free syrup, and like 8 cups of coffee with splenda and creamer.
I did horribly, so when I weighed in I wasn't surprised. It was my first gain since joining, which I guess is good, but not something I wanted to happen. My ex-boyfriend that i have told you all about, Carson, was the one I spent that weekend with in Cloudcroft. It was by no means his fault that I ate horribly, I chose it. In fact, he very much supports my weight loss efforts. But it was a special weekend, 1. we have never, ever, spent the whole weekend together, and 2. it was his birthday. We started talking again and decided to work things out. We talked about moving in, getting married, etc. I think at that time, we were a long way away from it, however it was a good outlook for our future. Since then, as I am sure you can guess, we have broken up again lol.
I just need to move on from him, and unfortunately with us still communicating and keeping in contact, it's hard to do so. He has been out in the field, and so he was scheduled to come home last Friday, and texted me the night before asking if he could have some "me time" on Friday. I was like you seriously need "me time"? What would happen if I was living with you? Would you kick me out for the day cause you need "me time"? Plus after us decided to get back together, I had asked him several times and told him several times to delete his personals profile, because it really bothered me. With him not doing it, it made me think is he talking to other people, and then every time he logged in or every day he kept it open it was like he was saying a big I don't care about you to my feelings after telling him over and over how it bothered me. Ayyy Yiii Yiii...
Today I am going to my weight watchers meeting, I think I did pretty well this week so hopefully I lost. Afterwards, I found a deal on Groupon for 10 one hour kickboxing classes for $25.00 and my friend Chante from weight watchers and I bought them so we are going to get signed up for them and then go back to her house to make some turkey burgers !!! Before we go to her house we are going to stop at the store so I can buy my chips and Sprite for tomorrow's pot luck, which by the way, they just sent another flipping email reminder out about....UGHHH!!!!
Well tomorrow I will post another blog letting you know how I did this week along with some other news I have in regards to Thanksgiving!
Until next time....
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